Charles Le Test

Smiles are just so fucking sexy.
On most people.
Oh dear teeth, I really wish you were normal.
Or at least all of you existed.

ALRIGHTY-O that's enough of me feeling sorry for myself.

Although I did do something to my knee snowboarding and now it just decides to kill me with pain every once in a while...

Ah yes, in other news, Cranbrook tomorrow with my father. Should be nice, and, of course, wings with Makayla after. Nom nom nom.

You Still Impress Her

I'm the sort of mood where everyone I'm not really good friends with is pissing me off. So most of the human population.
Mostly I can't stand seeing things I know are lies/just really not true.
I want to correct them but then I think
a) I shouldn't really care that much
b) It would be pretty rude in most situations
c) No good would really come of it anyways

I also get jealous of the stupidest things. Honestly. My jealousy is so irrational sometimes.
I wish it would just go away.

Why Can't Life Be Like That?

That was the best dream I've ever had. Rather weird at some points, like the part with the chest of rainbow coloured wafer cookie sandwiches, but the rest was... perfect. I wish I didn't have to wake up.

Causeuse - A sofa built for two people

Hopeless Romantic or Optimistic Loner?

Dear internet,
Sometimes I really hate you. I do. I see all these things I can't have, or I don't have, I see all these people that look so fucking happy and it just makes me feel.. I don't know. I'd say depressed, only it isn't. It just makes me feel sad. Sad and alone. Then I see people who actually are depressed and that really doesn't help either because then I feel like I don't have the right to be sad because nothing's actually that shitty in my life. I mean there's that whole... situation.. but honestly I should just accept the fact that it can't happen. It won't, it can't, it's never going to. There, done. Back to why I hate the internet. I see all these pictures of people being happy together, looking at the stars, reading together, going to coffee shops and libraries, just being together doing whatever. And I want that. I want that so so so much. I want to live with someone. I want to be myself with another person. I want to hold hands and tell stories. I want to play video games together until four in the morning. I want to cook together, I want to climb trees and go for bike rides and sing, no matter how horrible we both are. I want to make things, build things, use our hands to make something. I want to plant trees and flowers. I want to dance in the rain at midnight in the middle of the city. I want to be alive with someone. And then I go look at the pictures of kittens.


"Some of us say we'd rather
have something than nothing...
but the truth is, having something halfway
is harder than having nothing at all."

Witzelsucht

There's a million things rushing around in my brain. There's so many things I wish I could say to you but at the same time I don't want to at all because I either think I know exactly what you'd say, or I have no idea.
Today I was happy. Inexplicably happy. I mean that, too. I didn't really feel like I had a reason to be happy. In fact I felt like I had more reasons to not be happy, until I remembered the friends I have and that yes, people do in fact care about me, strange as it seems. On another not completely unrelated note, you mess with my brain. Too much. I feel like an idiot sometimes. Most of the time. But usually just while texting. Is it strange that it's exceedingly easier for me to talk to you in person? Probably not. I don't really know what I;m talking about anymore, but goodnight, cruel, lovely world.

Vigesimation - The act of killing every twentieth person

Band Aids

Broke 1,000 views the other day.
How.. enthralling?

        You just fucking entrance me, and it's not fair. It's not fair because I don't think we're on the same level at all. You say you like me too, but I feel like I'm just some annoying little child tagging along behind you. Sure sometimes I think I can see it, but then I just turn back into the self conscious teenager whom I wish I was better at suppressing. Usually I'm pretty confident but around you my confidence is just like LOL NOPE, though it might not seem like it.

Ah well, we all know this can't amount to anything anyways, and I ought to get used to it.

Hamartithia - Being likely to make a mistake

Shake Me Down

Lonely times indeed,
With eyes cast down,
Fixed upon the ground,
Eyes cast down
I'll keep my eyes fixed on the sun
Turn back now its time for me to let go,
Way down had to find a place to lay low,
Lampshade turned around into a light post
Walk around the corner,
Never saw it coming still,
I try to make a move,
It almost stopped me from belief,
I don't wanna know the future,
But I'm like rolling thunder



This song is just so flipping accurate to what's going on in my head sometimes it's odd.

Really? O-o

Holy butt mother pearl of baby jesus with peanunt butter and jam* I can not believe that just happened what the fuck am I supposed to do now?



*Courtesy of Makayla

Nocturnal

Sometimes you are the most ignorant person I know. You have little or no idea what you're talking about half the time. I'm sorry, but from what I've seen, it's true. You state "facts" while knowing hardly any of the information concerning what you're talking about, and just end up looking ignorant, which is logical if you think about it because you are being ignorant. I'm not claiming to know all the facts either, but please, just take the time to do a bit of background information. It's just.. it's embarrassing, alright? I'm not trying to say I'm perfect by any means, and I certainly don't know everything, but just try not to talk about things you don't know about.

I love you, but you piss me off to no end sometimes.

Also my apologies for (yet another) rant post.

Philosphunculist: One who pretends to know more about something than they actually do in order to impress/manipulate others