Woah There

Alright just a one sentence post this time I promise because okay guys it's two in the morning and I don't know why I'm writing on my blog and not in my bed and why do I always get super hungry right before bedtime oh wait maybe it's because I'm always hungry ahhg my room is a complete disaster maybe I'll get up earlier tomorrow to fix it before going snowboarding which could potentially be fun if everyone doesn't ditch me again but hey oh well I guess it wasn't so bad going by myself and wow I'm lonely and fuck you Micah just kidding I love you come back please or you know whatever like that's ever going to happen and holy SHIT how do I let my room get this messy honestly I can barely walk on the floor and wow I should really work on my relationships with people except for the whole part with how I don't really give a fuck because I'm leaving anyways and I'm back at work I guess which is niceish because I made a bunch of moneys which I probably need and also finally did scholarship stuff like two days before the final deadline so yeah I probably don't even deserve any but whatever give me money and yep I don't really have anything else to say except we fucking got fruitopia on tap at work and it's OFF THE WAAAALLLL yeah it's tasty have a good day WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING GOODNIGHT

I'm Taking An Emotional Shit.

So I'm heading off to Calgary for a week-ish.
I think it'll be good for me. I think it'll be good to be away from everything, from everyone. I won't have to sit at home alone thinking of stupid things and... yeah hopefully I'm just going to stop thinking about all the shitty stuff I find myself thinking about all the time. I just need less time to myself to be miserable I think. It's like.. I want to be around people I enjoy being around (as most people do) but.. I just don't enjoy anyone I guess? And I like being by myself, but I'm lonely or something too. I need interaction but I don't want it. Well I do, but it's all complicated and boring and babooooons.

AND NOW FOR MY THOUGHTS ON TEN PEOPLE I KNOW WHICH YOU ARE NOT GOING TO FIGURE OUT WHO I AM TALKING ABOUT PROBABLY WHO KNOWS

1) Fuck you.
2) You are annoying as fuck.
3) You Can Piss Right Off Good Sir.
4) I FUCKING LOVE YOU.
5) You can remove yourself from my brain.
6) I'm glad you're a person.
7) Fucking pull yourself together. Seriously.
8) You have no idea what the fuck you're talking about.
9) Thank you for existing and sorry I suck.
10) You have not changed a bit. Except now you're hotter I guess?

I Miss You Like Dentist Appointments

I go a bit crazy when I realize it has been over eight months since I've seen you. That is... kind of a really long time. In fact, one would think that over such a large period of time it would be easy to remove a person from one's daily thoughts. One would think.

The sad, sad, stupid truth is, however, that getting you out of my head seems to be impossible.
Even my subconscious is screwing with me, randomly placing you in my dreams only for me to wake up bitter and disappointed.

I wish I had the last day of last school year to do over.

On the plus side, I've finally retained the knowledge of how to tie a tie nicely.